lie awake at night

A Thousand Winds
Do not stand at my grave and weep;
I am not there,
I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow.
I am the diamond glints on snow.
I am the sunlight on ripened grain.
I am the gentle autumun's rain.
When you awaken in the morning's hush,
I am the swift uplifting rush
Of quiet birds in circled flight.
I am the soft stars that shine at night.
Do not stand at my grave and cry;
I am not there,
I did not die.

*This is a song translated from japanese

将来，你想当什么?
最近身边的朋友都开始策划自己的将来，
例如，想考上什么大学的啦，想在那家公司上班的啦，等等.......
看来我也得为自己好好想一想了。
朋友问我：高专毕业后，要做什么?
我 ：考大学。
朋友：大学毕业后?
我 ：考硕士。
朋有：硕士之后?
我 ：考博士。
朋友：之后?
我 ：回国吧。。。。
朋友：回国干吗?
我 ：。。。。
的确，回国干吗?
我在那之后的将来全没去想。
回国工作?当老师?继续深造?
说真的，能读到什么程度，自己也不能给自己一个绝对。
总是想：之后再打算吧!现在只要专心读书就行了!
我就是那样子。。。。他问的对，我的确该有一个目标。

之后，
我反问：那，你呢?
朋友 ：考完大学，能继续深造，当然继续深造。之后，我要到公司上班，我要设计一款新游戏软件，开设自己的公司。。。。。。。。
我听完后，不禁开始崇拜他，
人因梦想而伟大!!
你呢?你找到自己的梦想了吗?
还是，你已经活在梦想之中了呢?

Fallensword!
Recently i m really into tis game,
the game i had play for nearly 4 months,
ya, it's true tat the game play style is old,
but u enjoy meeting lotsa people!!
from different country, different culture and different language.
recent, I get to know a engineer from Finland,
and u can imagine how surprise i am when i get to know tat
he been study in Tokyo Denki University for 4 month as an exchanged student.
I talk to him everytimes i free,
ask about how to be a engineer, how to proceed to master and so on....
Its not juz like tat, a lot people i had talked wif,
13years old kid from Romania, 55years old lady from Brazil.......
Its not juz a game for me not, its a place for me to learn, to see...
Now, i chat in gamechat more than the time i login into MSN and skype!
(^.~)

空を飛ぶ兔
手をください、目をください、足を、という人もあるけれど、
私は見えないことなんか気にしない、目をくださいとは思わない。
でもひょっとして私だって心の中では、
そう思っているかもしれない、人は勇気があるんだなあ！
羨ましいからいうのかな、いったって思ったってもらえるわけないのに、
どうしたってもらうことは出来ないもんな。
目が見えなくても人の話を聞いたり、触ったり、かいだり、
本当に見るよりも、もっと、もっと色んなことを思い浮かべることが出来るんだもん
いつか兔が空を飛ぶことが出来ると思い
人に笑われたこともあるけれど、すごいねっていった人もいた。

兔はどうして飛んじゃいけないの？
私の心の中では、兔って飛ぶんだよ！
私と一緒に飛ぶんだよ！！！

PM again...
This is a post posted in one of fren's blog.
I m too lazy to write about it so juz quote it from somewhere:
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首相结婚
今天从报纸上看到大标题，首相要结婚了。
端详报上的照片，首相大大的笑容，喜上眉梢的神色，不禁也感染那一分快乐。自从恩顿去世后，每次从报章上看到他的样子，总是看起来很疲累，严肃中带着些许落寞。
这一次终于不同。一扫抑郁之情，表情也变得神采丰富，精神奕奕。
想来也是，高处不胜寒。如果身边没有一个人伴随左右，听你倾诉发牢骚，一起度过生活点滴，多寂寞呢。
外界尽管诸多猜测，众说纷纭。
这一刻，他也只是渴望被爱的平凡人。
亦如你我。
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Malaysia VS Japan!
Today, there is a soccer match between Malaysia and Japan,
It is on live in TV!
I watch it wif other malaysian students,
and oso i asked my tutor to watch wif us.
The match started.... and my tutor was quite quiet and shy,
(he is surrounded by 3 malaysian),
while all of us was shouting:"Malaysia (boleh)!"
hahah,
i told him: dun worry, Japan sure win one!
If we can defense within 30 minutes and no goal, we won!
haha! he smiled.
But guess wat? Japan get first goal by 28th minutes......
hmmm.... shit...
not more than 5 minutes after tat, second goal!
I started to get frustrated, but still pretended and said: If Malaysia team get a goal, tomolo i will be on holiday!
Actually i really hope tat we can get a goal.
We did!
The result ended as 3-1, hmmm not tat bad at least.
But I was quite embarassing in the very end of match.
Why? juz imagine: Malaysia players get 7-8 yellow card!
How to ask people to trust u boleh?
Tutor not comment anything about this, but i understand.

After tat match, i think a lot.
As a conclusion, no matter wat we do, remember tat there are always eyes on us.
When u in ur country, u carry image of ur family, society,
and when u out of ur country, u carry the image of ur country!
So, think twice be4 act.
I will always remember today's match!
他人对自己的印象，往往取决于言行举止。-----三思而后行

New beginning.....
Study is getting harder and harder,
and I m busy wif exam for the whole week d,
everyday 3-4 hours' sleep.
Even its weekend, i still have to study overnight,
coz next week still got 5 subject for 2 days to go,
haha, wat can i do?
didnt read bible everyday, and be4 exam i can only hug Buddha's leg lo!!!
And....
yesterday i dream again....
Walking on a dark path, run and run,
then i crash into a door and light bright every corner around me,
..... It's morning d... only then i realise..
but, wat does it mean? A brand new day? A new start of easier life?
hahah
Hope so..........