lie awake at night

小时候。哭着哭着，就笑了，
长大后，笑着，笑着，就哭了

心里念着今年可能是最后一年的关系，
7月尾里，又去爬了富士山。
这一次，陪我一起登山的是2个今年认识的朋友。

前一天，大家看着天气预报，心里都犹豫着该不该登山时，
就我一句:"要做就敢敢去做"
大家便决定干了！

隔天，果然老天不做美，
下着雨，
我们下午三点从第五站开始爬，目标是天亮之前，一定要到山顶！

雨，一直下个不停，
我们脚步加快，8点左右便已经到第八站了，
风越吹越大，疲惫的身躯又冷又湿，已经不能继续爬了。
最后我们决定到小屋歇息，
钱包拿出来，大家凑凑钱，只好让小屋的主人赚一笔。
进到小屋，才知道很多登山者也和我们一样，逼不得已在小屋歇息。
晚上9点，我们决定先睡一会，12点时看情况再下决定要不要继续。
我睡不着，便到大堂里休息，
之后陆续有人受伤被送进小屋里急救，搞得我很不安。
12点，叫醒两位朋友，看看风速，风好像都吹不累。。。
这时，一队登山队的领导下了"放弃"的决定。
心灰了的我，好在两个朋友说都已经到这儿了，哪能轻易放弃？
一起祈祷了一个小时，终于，风雨都收锐了一点，
我们穿起湿泠泠的鞋子，披上雨衣，抛下温暖的被窝，走进黑暗的世界，向"明天"出发。

一路上，上天还真的很庇护我们，到第九站为止都很顺利，
可是，就在大伙儿都在庆幸的时候，突然刮起大风，雨也开始下了起来。
之后，可想而知，我们几乎都是身体贴着火山岩爬着上的。
半途中，我们遇到了一个自己一个人爬山的韩国人，虽然言语不通，我们邀了他一块儿。
风很大，雨很大，
眼前看得到的，就只有自己脚下的岩石，
耳朵听得到的，就只有同伴的激励的话，
心里想着的，就只有"日出"这两个字，
经过一个小时的挣扎后，我们终于到达了山顶，
我们，手握同一个铜钱，许下愿望，往鸟居一丢后，齐齐跨了过去。
这一天，山顶被乌云罩着，成功登山的，连我们在内，不超过20人，
听山顶的和尚说，每天平均会有超过一千人登上富士山，但今天却是例外。
没有日出，但却有成功登山者们的互相祝福。
大家休息了一会儿，互相握了握手，便下山去了。
我和朋友们是最后一组下山的，毕竟好不容易才登上日本最高峰，
我们都不想马上下山。
几许等待，乌云还是不散，最后我们只好下山。
幸好，下山的时候，天开始放晴，我们有缘拜见了云海。
感叹了大自然的美之后，我们满足地踏上了归途。

下山途中，我遇见了一位老婆婆，70岁了，
她告诉我她死去的丈夫每年这个时期都会带她来爬，来到这儿就会特别想他。
一座山，背后都会藏着许多不为人知的故事，
就像这一张合照，背后细说的就是我们的故事。

我知道还有很多地方的日出好看过富士山，
只是我喜欢那黑夜里力尽千辛万苦，爬到山顶时，第一道光线射进眼里的感觉。
虽然这一次，日出看不到，
但我们都很满足。

做什么，都讲求一颗心。
心想事成。
今天，突如其来的一通电话，
把我的心打乱了。
平静的心，一口井，被丢了一颗大石。
泛起了涟漪。
我知道，时间会让这水面回复平静，
只是，我怕我会变得不是我。。。。

有一个人问我，

最近，每天都晚出晚归，

我，像个白痴！

简单就是幸福。

电视里听到的一句话，
很有意思，
我想了2个礼拜，
我想这句话说得一点儿也不错。


从前的我们，什么都没有，却有着单纯的幸福，
曾经的我们，什么都有了，却失去了单纯的幸福，
现在的我们，只想找回那颗单纯的心，单纯的幸福。

那么，我们应该怎么做呢？

死，有那么可怕吗？
可怕的是，被人遗忘的感觉吧。
可能。。。。

歌词是我的日记，
歌曲记录我的感情，
音乐，就如同我的记忆。
别问我为何偶尔会听旧歌，
那你又为何偶尔会翻翻日记，叙旧呢？

十五的月亮，告诉我，还剩下十五天了。
心里有许多的不安。
就如当初要出发到日本的时候。
不安，因为不懂自己的华文程度掉到什么水平了
不安，因为回去第二天便是年初一，
3年没过新年的我，tension不知转不转得来。
不安，因为担心和朋友们没有话题。
不安，因为还有种种的不安。
无论如何，
想对你们说的，还是那一句，
我，还是我。

The haze beyond your eyes clouds my sight,
Are there feelings lying at the bottom of your heart?

Even if the whole world was yours,
Would that that bring you happiness?

Why do you stare up at the lonesome sky?
Why, let's see you smile
I know what you're like,
How you aren't good at putting things into words, so why not...

What happened in days long past?
In your eyes, as turn your gaze away from me

Do you know of such a warmth,
One that can embrace you on those lonely nights by yourself?

Why are you so worked up on appearances?
Why, open up your heart
I know you've had a heavy cross to bear,
But I've got the strength to accept you
So why not try believing in me

The free are awkward...
The free are anxious...

Why do you look up at the lonesome sky?
Why, let's see you smile
I know what you're like,
How you aren't good at putting thing into words
So why not try believing in me

What was a drop of tear trying to convey by falling down?
I used to believe, that even without words, it can be felt by the heart...

By that window where there's a good view
Even though nothing was said Your likes and preferences
I was ready to know them all

I'd found a daylight star, you know And, the day that I found you
I was just as delighted Now, they are even more special than they used to be...

The me who can't bid goodbye properly A bird who can't fly towards tomorrow
If only I can possess that little courage Even just a little bit

Your presence, scent...
Together with memories, continue to faint with each passing day
But the pain to be once embraced in your arms, has yet to dissipate

I pulled your hand while you were half-awake
As we looked up at the pale blue sky
We pointed to the two stars that were beside each other
We can't return to the past, can we?

What was a drop of tear trying to convey by falling down?
I used to believe, that even without words, it can be felt by the heart...
The me who can't bid goodbye properly A bird who can't fly towards tomorrow
If only I can possess that little courage Even just a little bit

We met here, two months ago to this day, didn’t we?
I didn’t even know how to kiss you back then, my first sweet girlfriend
It’s a silly little anniversary that I wrote down on my calendar
I asked, “What day is it again?” You hesitated a little and then replied

Smiling, you answer, “It’s my ex-boyfriend’s birthday,” I find it hard to smile
I don’t want to hear about that sort of thing…
Our time together still can’t match up to those 3 years you spent with him
But even though I love you this much, we drift apart too many times

We can’t seem to reach each other’s heart and rather than going on like this
Maybe we shouldn’t see one another until your heart can give me an answer
Even if that day is tomorrow or 5 years from now, I’ll always be waiting here
Let’s make a promise and firmly connect our two hearts with a red thread

The flower that was a bud back then already had elegant colors
As fall and winter passed, it withered away, reflecting me as I am now

Time passed by cruelly and I felt helpless, when I closed my eyes
I saw visions of you walking with somebody else…
It felt like I would never see you again
I resigned myself to never seeing you
And tried to hold my heart together, now I have the answer I believed in

“Will you meet me?” your letter full of truthful words says
My tears are spilling onto it, I’ll be there with you soon
So don’t cry, today’s our one year anniversary
Let’s celebrate that and our red thread, which never came untied
You can wish to be loved, but don’t forget that you need to believe
This might be a journey without a clear goal but that’s alright
I’ll walk the path I believe in with my true love, one step at a time

无论做什么事情，都得想想后果才行动，
无论说什么东西，都得经经大脑才出口。
有的人，说话做事都很冲动，
别人都说那是「潇洒」，
我却说这是「愚蠢」。
活了20多年了，如果连一点责任感也没有的话，
我只能说，死了算了
有些事，并不是随心里高兴便行了的，
要想想后果。
牵一发而动全身，坐下来想想吧。。。

Someone say
“If there is love, there’s peace”
and one may agree with that, or not

Whenever I was in pain
you’d hold me closely
And it was in the warmth of those
arms that makes me felt peace

But then I you stopped talking to you and closed
off my heart,
this love was torn apart

This time I don’t
let go off my heart
Because my faith in you
will set us free

When you helped me as a friend
I imagined our future together
And though I saw happiness in store for us
I did’t see my own issues

Though our we said our promises would be our compass
but we lost sight of the direction this love was going in

Instead of waiting for a miracle
I want you to hold onto my hand
Because my faith in you
will set us free

You don’t have to fear this love
You don’t have to fear this love, this love

This time I don’t
let go off my heart
Because my faith in you
will set us free
Instead of waiting for a miracle
I want you to hold onto my hand
Because my faith in you
will set us free

good morning son
i am a bird
wearing a brown polyester shirt
you want a coke?
maybe some fries?
the roast beef combo's only nine ninety five
but it's okay
you don't have to pay
i've got all the change

everybody knows
it hurts to grow up
but everybody does
it's so weird to be back here
let me tell you what
the years go on and
we're still fighting it
and you're so much like me
i'm sorry

good morning son
twenty years from now
maybe we'll both sit down
and have a few beers
and i can tell
you about today
and how i picked you up
and everything changed
it was pain
sunny days and rain
i knew you'd feel the same things

everybody knows
it sucks to grow up
and everybody does
and so weird to be back here
let me tell you what
the years go on and
we're still fighting it

you'll try and try
and one day you'll fly
away from me

it was pain
sunny days and rain
i knew you'd feel the same things

everybody knows
it hurts to grow up
and everybody does
and so weird to be back here
let me tell you what
the years go on and
we're still fighting it
and you're so much like me
i'm sorry

走着去车站，我遇到一位牵着小孩的妈妈。

小孩： 为什么妈妈的手那么大？
妈妈： 你还小，长大后，你也会有这样大大的一双手哦！
小孩： 那我要快快长大，有一双大大的手。到时，我要牵你的手过马路！
妈妈： 好伟大喔

希望小孩长大后，能记得今天说过的话......

抓把盐，撒在伤口上，
痛，
证明我还是个凡人...

走下楼梯，门口放了3双鞋。
1双皮鞋，1双被雨淋湿了的鞋，
还有1双肮脏了的运动鞋。
选来选去，最后还是这双运动鞋最衬我。
好吧，今天你就是主角啦！