lie awake at night

The world keep spining...
Went to Glee club camp, trainning for next competition,
ate togather wif club member,
sleep in the same room wif club member,
play games wif them,
had fun (sometimes),

BUT.....
still i found tat i dun really addicted to them,
after came back, i keep on asking myself why.......
there is still 'walls' there,
between us,
wat can i do to break it?

the only answer i can comfort myself is:
my japanese language still not satisfying.
i could barely understand wat they say,
or maybe i should said i juz guess wat they're talking.....

the world keep spining, time pass away...
i still stay at the same place.
I always said i wanna live as ME,
BUT now....
should i fasten my pace??
chase the world....
follow the major.

if life is a long distance marathon race.....
we keep running...
Where is the GOAL???
Til where, til when we should, we have to run?
if this is the life,
dun u think tat its really suffer?

Wat am i struggle for?
I'm tired......